just superficial or deep???

Sunday, December 7, 2008

..something we need to think about!.. :)

No matter how you want to spin it, beautiful people are just that, beautiful. However, to what degree does it play into you finding your perfect match?

Seemingly, most of us are engulfed by a blitzing media that sells everything from lingerie to exotic cars with some gorgeous blonde or brunette sitting next to it. An idea that if it’s candy to the eyes, it will sell to the general public more readily.
While this concept is hardly new and not far from the truth, how important of a factor does it play in landing someone that you could see yourself spending the rest of your days with?

You would be surprised how shallow many adults are!

The idea of bypassing personality for the most part and simply sizing up a prospects physical attributes for a potential long term mate, can be nothing sort of disastrous.
So what is the hurt in holding out until you find a perfect match. You know, someone who has it all, personality, character, integrity, dignity, compassion, accountability, compatibility, aspirations, and empathy?

Did you notice I conveniently left out a flawless face, ideal smile, and a drop dead body?

It is because in a long term relationship, the heart, character, and integrity will ninety nine times out of a hundred always win in the end.

Don’t get me wrong, there are beautiful people who have the whole package, brains and beauty. Although, they are not the easiest to find and not the easiest to tame.


What I’m saying is, if a person knows they have the full gamut of qualities, they know their marketability, so ‘you’d better bring your A game’ if your going to spend time with them, is usually their mindset.

When speaking on the heart, intentions always come to mind. What intentions does a person have as they travel through their respective life?

Are they about others first, and then themselves, or do they want theirs first? This is a poignant question anyone can ask themselves as a soul search in order to gain additional perspective about their heart so as to know the path they are travelling down.

Once more, this is a quality to look for when screening a panel of people who you see have potential and peering through thin disguises can become a learned, efficient art.

Question: Would you pass up an opportunity to be with someone who is not your ideal physical specimen but you know they would be the perfect compliment to you and vice versa just to be with a less compatible, more attractive person?

That question is what one should sort out before delving deep into a committed relationship. Your honest intentions usually mean everything to someone else and are the very hinge a single persons future can depend on.
Being lost when understanding intentions is not a viable option.

Fact: Some of the most beautiful people I have ever been around are some of the least attractive to the eyes; their selflessness, caring, attitude, and personality are impossible to overlook, leaving the more attractive person ’somewhere in a cloud of dust on a rural road in my mind.’

Their heart is like a beacon in the pitch dark where light is less than sparse. It screams without saying a word!

People with good hearted intentions are like glimmering diamonds. Finding them is not that hard if you know what your looking for. So next time you come across a less than beautiful potential mate, ask yourself, “is this person’s inner beauty worth tossing away, or did you just find a gem?”

the way i do.. :)

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

..after a long, long time of hibernating.. I'M BACK! uhmmm, its just that..i just lack of words to say.. can't think of anything to blog 'bout..that's why.. :D

and now, it's really a miracle.. :D i have a new post.. haha.. though nothing much to say talaga.. i just would like to have it posted.. in remembrance of his special day.. :D

hay, grabe.. i just love this song... :) after a long time na hnd k naririnig 'tong song na'to... bgla nalng.....ayun na! just last2x week if i can still remember it correctly, i heard it again.. courtesy of ate teri's innova.. grabe, made me missed someone again.. awww... :(

matagal k ng gusto 'tong song na 'to.. and now super fave ko xa ulit..hehe.. LSS???.. over and over... hahaha...

this is for u, hon.. HAPPY BDAY.. :) this is ur special day, i know that.. :)


"The Way I Do"

by Marcos Hernandez


Your kiss, your smile, your mind
You're sunlight in my eyes
I miss your breath on my neck
When we whisper in the nightDidn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done
Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Your touch, your skin, can't believe the way you let me in
Don't rush tonight, I need you like the ocean needs the tide.

Didn't wanna want you
Didn't wanna need you so bad
Didn't wanna wake up
And find that I was falling so fast
Didn't wanna need you
Didn't wanna need anyone
Now look what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

I always thought I would stand on my own
Climb a mountain top all alone
Relying, depending on no one
Now look at what you've done

Now I can't go on without you
I'm naked, I cant fake it.
I'm not that strong without you
Never thought I could love you the way I do.

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

Never thought I could love you
Never thought I could need you
Never thought I could want you
The way I do

I love you
I need you
I want you
..the way I do
[x2]


PS: ATE TERI... hmmm thanks for introducing to me again this song.. hehe.. i know, this is your song to my insan right now.. kya can relate k nMn tlg.. :D hehe, peace! :D

for the benefit of all people, i believe.. :)

Sunday, September 14, 2008

..i've read this article a while ago, and found it really interesting and true.. so i decided to share it with you guys.. :)

DATING 101: Are Bad Dating Habits Keeping You Single?

Five tips to free yourself from common dating traps...
By Lisa Steadman, The Relationship Journalist

In the search for love, it's all too easy to get sidetracked by bad dates, broken hearts, and bad love habits. And while bad dates and broken hearts are part of the dating journey toward happily-ever-after, bad love habits can and should be avoided at all costs.
So what's a bad love habit? Any dysfunctional, destructive, difficult belief or habit you have towards love and relationships that's keeping you from finding, attracting, and/or maintaining a healthy relationship. The following are some common bad dating beliefs:
• You choose potential partners who are incapable of meeting your emotional needs.

• You think love has to be difficult, painful, and/or hard.

• You think your potential partner is going to fix whatever you don't like about yourself or your life.

• You believe time is running out on your search for love and/or your chance to have children.

If any of the above sound familiar, don't worry. You're not a lost cause. In fact, with a little time and effort, you can turn things around! What follows are five simple and effective tips and techniques geared toward helping you break free of limiting relationship beliefs and bad dating habits. Practiced over time, you can and will kick any bad dating habit -- for good!

1. Identify the dating traps you're stuck in
Think you've got to miraculously solve all your problems before you'll be deserving of love? Convinced there are no good "ones" left? Or do you believe that your perfect partner will one day swoop in and magically save you from your life? If any or all of the above sound familiar, chances are good that you suffer from some common dating traps. In order to become a successful single, you first need to free yourself from these traps. Acknowledging the traps you're stuck in is the first step. Next, you've got to break free of these traps, as well as any other limiting or destructive beliefs that are keeping you stuck. To find out how, keep reading.

2. Assess your excess baggage
Next, it's important to get honest with yourself about what you might be lugging around with you on dates (or in life in general). What are you holding onto that no longer serves you? Rejection, disappointment, betrayal? This is from your past, not your present or future. If you've got negative or destructive beliefs or fears weighing you down, you owe it to yourself to dump that excess baggage!

3. Dump your excess baggage
In order to have a happily ever after future, you have to first believe you deserve finding a mate. Gather those painful memories, that chip on your shoulder, any residual anger from past relationship experiences, and tell them they've got to go. Thank them for the lessons you've learned and tell them that it's now time for you to stand on your own two feet. In your mind's eye, give them the heave-ho! Next, start visualizing the kind of life you want to have, complete with your dream job, perfect partner, ideal home, etc. By getting clear about what you want, you give yourself permission to attract it.

4. Stop putting off your life and/or personal happiness
So many of us put off personal happiness waiting for some external result like "I'll be happy when I lose weight, when I pay off my debts, when I get a better job." The truth is, you deserve to enjoy your fabulously imperfect life right this very minute!
When you stop putting off happiness, you start attracting happy people, healthy relationships, exciting and new opportunities. Instead of postponing joy until something external happens, today's the day to start celebrating the joy in your everyday life.

5. Embrace a new dating vocabulary
Now that you're baggage light and dating-trap free, it's time to introduce a new vocabulary to your dating belief system. Every morning and night for 30 days, practice the following exercise: Say to yourself "Love/dating/my ideal relationship is..." and then fill in the blank with the appropriate words (words like healthy, whole, loving, fun, etc.). By creating a new vocabulary for yourself, you may be surprised at how your outlook on dating and relationships changes, and as a result, you'll start attracting happier and healthier potential partners. Love that!
So there you have it -- five simple dating tips and techniques to help you break free of limiting relationship beliefs and bad love habits. May you learn them, love them, live them. In doing so, you just may fall in love with your life all over again, not to mention exponentially increase your chances of future relationship success.

Good luck and happy dating! :)

hibernating.....

Saturday, September 6, 2008

too obvious, im soooo damn busy nowadays.. can't even update my blog.. hay! :(

too many things happened dis past few days... mixed emotions?? yeah ryt....
as they say, "When it Rains, it pours.." and "When it rains, it floods.." hahaha...
oh well, don't have enough time... i really can't accomodate all of them.. hehehe...

but seriously, my HEART is focused on one person right now, and i hope he wouldn't give me severe headaches.... :)

don't have to elaborate.. i'm speechless, can't say anything 'bout it.... obviously, my blog is really hibernating.. lol.. and im sooo sorry 'bout it.. :))

Milk and Toast and Honey by Roxette

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Milk and toast and honey make it sunny on a rainy Saturday, he-he-hey
Milk and toast, some coffee take the stuffiness out of days you hate, you really hate
Slow morning news pass me by
I try not to analyze but didn't he blow my mind this time
Didn't he blow my mind?

(Here he comes)
To bring a little lovin', honey
To take away the hurt inside
Is everything that matters to me
Is everything I want in life

Milk and toast and honey
Ain't it funny how things sometimes look so clear and feel so near
The dreams I dream, my favourite wishful thinkin'
Oh, he's bookmarked everywhere, everywhere
True love might fall from the sky
You never know what to find but didn't he blow my mind this time
Didn't he blow my mind?

(Here he comes)
To bring a little lovin', honey
To take away the pain inside
Is everything that matters to me
Is everything I want from life

Oh lay a little lovin', honey
To feel you're gettin' close to me
Is everything that matters to me
Is everywhere I wanna be....

FULL Tank MATTERS!!! :)

Monday, August 4, 2008

for the past weeks, me too felt the sudden fuel price increase.. argh! dis past few weeks (3 weeks i think), i never had the chance to go to a gasoline station for zajh's FULL Tank.. minsan pa2gas k xa 500, 800, 1000 or 1500php and the minimum is 300,, and NEVER a FULL tank for the past 3 weeks.. :( i remember the days 2loi when i was in grade school and high school, kahit magpa-gas lng cna mommy ng 100 or 200php eh okei na.. super layo na ng mapu2ntahan namin.. but nowadays dat is never applicable, kng magpa2-gas k ng 100 or 200php ngayon eh sandali lng at EMPTY ka na ulet.. grabe! hirap tlg ng life ngayon.. and dahil ilang weeks din akong hnd nkapag full tank, i thought of having zajh a FULL tank right now.. yipeee.. :) if ever cgro ngsa2lita ang kotse k, eh super happy and nagpa2salamat cgro xa ngyn sa gnawa k.. haha.. :D
i am now reviving my habit of having zajh a full tank every start of the week.. para khit every start ng week eh maramdaman kong FULL tank xa.. haha.. :D and dat is a 'promise'!.. so to start my promise... here's a captured pic, proof na FULL Tank c zajh for the start of dis week.. hmmmm, i think zajh is now ready to go to Cabanatuan for this week.. :)

Who Am I by Casting Crowns

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

>> i love this song, so true about us.. For if we are so broken, still God accepts us. When the praises go up, all the blessings come down! Also, nothing can be more overwhelming than knowing that our God did everything for us.. So why should we fear?? Folks, please be reminded that when we feel so abandoned and helpless, let us call upon His name.. Believe that God could do beyond our expectations.

>> Listen to the message of this song.. and find time to reflect on your life.. May this song draw you closer to the Lord our God.. :)

Who Am I - Casting Crowns


Who Am I?
That the Lord of all the earth,
Would care to know my name,
Would care to feel my hurt.
Who am I?
That the bright and morning star,
Would choose to light the way,
For my ever wandering heart.

Bridge:
Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.

Chorus:
I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

Who am I?
That the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
And watch me rise again.
Who am I?
That the voice that calmed the sea,
Would call out through the rain,
And calm the storm in me.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.

Not because of who I am,
But because of what you've done.
Not because of what I've done,
But because of who you are.


I am a flower quickly fading,
Here today and gone tomorrow,
A wave tossed in the ocean,
A vapor in the wind.
Still you hear me when I'm calling,
Lord, you catch me when I'm falling,
And you've told me who I am.
I am yours.
I am yours.

I am yours.

Whom shall I fear?
Whom shall I fear?
'Cause I am yours.
I am yours...

due to insistent public demand.. :)

Sunday, July 20, 2008

today is sunday and because im not totally loaded with lectures this coming week.. i decided to do my friends' favor.. and what's that all 'bout?.. to burn them with mp3 discs.. :) ang tagal k n kasing utang sakanila un.. imagine 5 peeps ang nagpa2burn skn and each person 3cds ang gustong compilation.. whew! ang bisyo nila noh.. hehe, wala nMn aq mag2awa kc lahat un mga friends k and d aq maka2tanggi sknla, kc evrytym na sa2kay cla s kotse k.. iba2ng music ang mga nari2nig nila.. that's why gusto nila,
they all have copies ng new songs na meron aq.. :) plus ung mga pinapadownload nila eh sinasama k n rin.. :) madali lng nMn magburn db, ang naka2hilo lng eh ung pagco2mpile depending s mga songs na gusto nila and pagla2gay nun per folder..hehe.. tpos 5 persons p un.. o db? kaloka.. :))
wala tlg aq mgawa ngyn, kaya pagbi2gyan k na ang munting favor nila..hehe.. plus the fact na mejo tinatamad din aq mag-aral ngayn..hehehe.. buti nlng at all day lng aq d2 s haus.. swerte nila tlg.. hehe.. :p
wala lng tlg aq magawa kaya napablog lng.. d n maxado updated 2ng blog ko with events..hehe.. la ng time for blogging eh.. sad! :(

>> a must: try to read, absorb and comprehend.. :)

Sunday, July 13, 2008

Before, hinahabol kita pero di mo ako pinapansin. Tapos isang araw nawala ako, hinanap mo ako at tinanong, "Bakit ka nagsawa?" Ngumiti ako, "Hindi ako nagsawa. Natauhan lang."
Pwede mo kong lokohin pero wag kang magpapahuli sakin.
Pwede mo kong palitan pero siguraduhin mong mas mahal mo siya sakin.
Pwede mo kong iwan pero siguraduhin mong kaya mo.
Kasi pag ako sobrang nasaktan, wala ka nang babalikan.

Ang Boys? Pag trip ka, magpapakilala.
Kaibigan kuno hanggang pumorma na.
Tapos pag nahulog ka na, ayun, goodbye na dahil sawa na sila.
Pero dapat walang iiyak at smile lang tayo.
Punyeta, anong silbi ng KARMA??..

I fell in love and got hurt but I didn't shed too much tears nor did I ask him to love me again. Instead, I stood up proudly and said, "Ganyan talaga ang magaganda!
Hindi bagay sa tanga!"
Simple lang para hindi ka masaktan. Kapag minahal ka, mahalin mo din. Kapag ginago ka, gaguhin mo rin! Pero kapag umiyak ka, tanga ka! Ginago ka na nga, iiyakan mo pa?..

Pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo, wag mo siyang sisihin! Kausapin mo siya ng harap-harapan at sabihin mong, "Ingat, tanga ka pa naman!"

Masakit pag iniwan ka ng mahal mo. Pero wag kang magagalit ng husto.
Kahit papano may pinagsamahan naman kayo, diba?
Kaya for the last time yakapin mo siya at ibulong mo, "Gago, kukulamin kita!
hahaha...

Girls, talo daw kayo sa mga boys? Papayag kayo? Sige, pag niligawan tayo, sagot agad.
Pag iniwan tayo? Ok lang. Kapag sinabi nilang, "Uy, EX ko." Alam niyo sagot diyan? "Ay, ambisyoso."

If the one you love doesn't love you back, don't get depressed. Just think about it for a while, maybe cry a bit then wipe your tears and say, "Ang weird naman niya. Di siya pumapatol sa magaganda!"

You only got one life so live it well., one heart so take good care, one soul so keep it pure. One boyfriend? What a waste! Make it two or more! Sayang ganda natin noh!!!

Pag sinabi sa iyo ng mahal mo na ayaw na niya sa iyo, hayaan mo lang. Wag kang iiyak at magpapakagago! Imbis na iyakan mo siya, ngitian mo lang at sabihin mo ang ganito, "So, paano? Bye na! Naghihintay na ang kapalit mo!"

Who cares about break-ups? Oo nga, masakit. Makirot sa puso. Pero tandaan mo: a break-up isn't only an end to a relationship. It's also a beginning of a new one and an end to a living hell called "EX". Di b?..

..Words to Ponder.. :)

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Surround yourself with love. Though this may seem to you the most impossible emotion to experience in the first stages following a separation, it is to become your course of action when you realize that love is the key to your control of self and to the door that is opening towards your new reality. Love is what brought you into your relationship and love is the power that will lead you to the meaningful resolution of your situation.

This decision to love must first take effect with reference to yourself and to the person from whom you are separating. You must love yourself for those qualities which brought you into the realm of that other person: your willingness to give of yourself and to take the risk of being hurt. And to love the other person in spite of the pain you are feeling is to allow that person the same freedom you will both need in order to move on. Love is a force that renews us and prepares us for tomorrow. Hatred is a shackle that keeps us tied to the past. Drop the shackles!

The one from whom you have separated will not soon be forgotten, though great distances may separate the two of you. Give the memory of that person the chance to help you by insisting on remembering the beautiful experiences that united you. The painful ones which separated you will need no coaxing from the memory. Turn your anger into love. Take the qualities you found in the other person and develop them in yourself, use them as a way of better experiencing your love for all the others who are important in your life. After all, those were qualities which brought you into love and they are no less worthy today.

Love has no guilt and no boundaries. In fact, it has no definition. Yes, it is the force which takes us out of ourselves so that we may share ourselves with others. Yet it is also the force that leads us into ourselves, so that we may understand and prepare ourselves for the act of giving. You cannot resolve the bitterness and pain of the separation you are experiencing by continuing to dwell on these feelings. Come alive with the force which is the essence of life itself. You are leaving one relationship, one stop in your journey. There is still a path before you. Walk in love.

are you still ON THE SIDE OF ME???

Saturday, June 28, 2008

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
on the side of me

'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
but you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth

'Cause you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
on the side of me

'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared
I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you

Yeah you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

>> i happened to hear this song last year, around august or september if i can remember it right.. and downloaded it then from limewire.. :)
and now, i frequently hear it being played on some radio stations..
haaay.. this song really reminds me of someone then.. after all that happened last year then hearing this song after a month or so.. and then hearing it again now on some radio stations.. whew ano b?? one year na rin pla ang naka2raan.. tama bng maalala k pa na mag one year na rin pla since nangyari un..
i was on my way to cabanatuan yesterday, when all of a sudden 'this song' played on the radio station i was tuned in, made me cry for remembering it again.. kainis!
i hate the feeling when you remember something you really don't want to remember na.. ung feeling na you wanted to bury it na coz it's not healthy na marember pa.. but suddenly, just for some thing unexpected you'd again remember it.. ang hirap ng gnun db?.. this person happened to know everything 'bout me.. my ups & downs.. my actual emotions on a particular day, if im happy or sad.. i can say everything then alam na alam nia.. but for some things na really unexpected na mangyare.. everything nagbago.. as in everything..
yeah, 'a friend will always be a friend'.. pero ang hirap ibalik if sadyang meron na tlgng nabuong scar.. kahit na sabihin pa nating okei na ang lahat, still there's a part of me saying to back off.. parang ang hirap ibalik nung dati.. hnd k alam kng kaya k pa ba.. hndi k alm kng kelan gagaan e2ng nara2mdaman k.. basta i just hope everything will be fine.. but still, i miss the old times.. i miss it a lot.. :( i miss this friend a lot.....

~my "not so toxic" week~ :)

Monday, June 2, 2008

last week, im not toxic as what i've expected.. im stuck in the office for a week.. office, aufmc & school, office, aufmc & school.. dat's just my itinerary for the week.. :) naka2panibago.. hehe.. mas sanay aq s toxic na life.. parang kung hnd toxic, parang kulang ung ginagawa k.. parang feeling k hnd aq nagwo2rk.. hehe, dats how i feel pag tlgng hnd toxic.. dunno, kng gnun din kau.. :) i asked our reps, if im rili not needed in their area for the week, and they all had the same answer.. so far, im not badly needed.. it's good to know na walang problems/concerns s area nMn for the week, but SAD for me kc im stuck in the office tlg.. waiting for the time to reach 5pm para makaalis ng office.. :) hehe..
so dahil tlgng maluwag ang schedule k for the week, i went out with some of my friends after office hours.. :) from monday til thurs, puro aq may lakad after office hours..hehe gala tlg! :D all were dinner and chit chat time.. :) good thing, im now base here in pamp so lucky me.. hehe.. more time to be with my friends and loved ones.. :)
last wednesday, i had dinner with a friend and watched "21".. good movie, i enjoyed watching it.. :)
the next day (thursday), im with the meangurls, but unfortunately we were not complete.. diday was duty dat time.. so, sad for her coz she wasn't there with us.. it was again another bonding time for us, MGs.. the actual plan was we're gonna watch a movie, but since we were earlier for the LFS, we just decided to eat our dinner and have coffee at xtremely xpresso while chatting.. :) spending another quality time with my fab friends.. :)
okei.. so our chit-chats wouldn't be complete if we're not to make kwentos of what our actual experiences for now were.. so we had of course our fun-filled moments again and also had our serious talks 'bout life.. esp. our current lovelife status.. hahaha.. but im not here to mention those things.. :)
my weekend?.. i spent the entire weekend with my high school barkada.. grabe, i missed them a lot.. and it was so good to see them again.. :)
and also for this week, i craved for a lot of foods and had to buy one of course to satisfy my craving.. hehe.. like shawarma, isaw, cadbury topdeck, masapudrida and binanlay.. hay, super naka2taba s office kc puro kaen ang ginawa k while studying.. hehe.. i just wish na hnd aq tumaba ng todo-todo.. i just want to gain weight but not too fat.. hehe.. :)
nweiz, though im kinda depressed for this week for things i'd rather keep to myself nlng and not to mention it here in my blog nlng.. kc bka mabasa p ng mga persons involved.. eh mahirap na! basta felt guilty in a way, but all i did was to be transparent and honest lng.. they've done it on a wrong time and approach i guess.. guys, try to read my mind nlng..hehe..para maintindihan nio ung gusto kng sabihin.. hehe.. bsta un na un!.. :)
o xa, nxt time nlng ulit.. i'l continue watching greys anatomy season 4 na.. im sooo close to the finale part.. and i rili love watching it.. :) bye for now.. XOXO.. :D

The Time of My Life - David Cook

Monday, May 26, 2008

>> his winning piece.. :)
i just love this song, just like his rendition of Always Be My Baby.. :) lurve it.. hehe.. super duper THUMBS UP to Mr. David Cook.. :)

I've been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn't see it
Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I'm coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin' my world start to turn

And I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces
But now I'm rising from the ashes
Finding my wings
And all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart

So I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

And I'm out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
I'm keeping my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
My face to the sun

I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know
This is the time
This is the time of my life..
This is the time of my life..

What I'm Loving: My ZUNE.. :)

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

ZUNE is a brand of digital music products and services sold by Microsoft. It includes portable media players, client software, and the Zune Marketplace online music and video store. The devices come in three styles, all of which play music and videos, display images, and receive FM radio. They can share files wirelessly with other Zunes and via USB with Xbox 360s, and can sync wirelessly with Windows PCs.

The Zune Software, which runs on Windows XP and Vista, allows users to manage files on the player, rip audio CDs, and buy songs, music videos, and TV shows at the online store.

The first Zune models were released in the United States on November 19, 2006. The Zune 4, 8 and 80 were announced on October 2, 2007.
The second-generation Zune 4 GB, 8 GB, and 80 GB were announced on October 2, 2007. The 4 and 8 GB Zunes are flash-based and smaller in size than the 80 GB version. The 30GB Zune was not redesigned.

Recently, Microsoft has announced that Zunes will eventually be able to play games developed using XNA. Games will feature custom soundtracks and 8-player wireless multiplayer using the built-in Wi-Fi. It will also be possible to develop games that allow for Zune, Xbox, and Windows gamers to compete against each other. An early version of XNA Game Studio 3.0 released on May 7, 2008 allows developers to begin working on Zune games.


>> hehe.. im actually loving it.. mejo graduate muna aq from my ipod.. and im concentrating myself with this thing.. my ZUNE.. :) i absolutely love it 'coz it's actually one of the latest gadgets and i have one already.. Lucky ME! hehe.. :)

>> last thursday, may 15.. we went to mandarin oriental suites located at gateway mall to attend the Welcome Program for Mr. Frank Buescher.. who is he?.. he is the NEWest President and CEO of SYSMEX Asia-Pacific.. it was actually a dinner program for him.. so as usual, Zafire & Rhumba again became an Entertainment Industry in the sense that every group had somehow presented their talents.. some in dancing and others in singing.. :) the Rhumba group showcased their belly dancing skills.. the Zafire Manila had their Singkil dance.. and Zafire Luzon (me included of course) danced a Remix songs.. also, from our group, Deo, Aylwin and Sir Allan had their singing solo performances.. and they also had their TRIO performance, which was actually very well performed.. how i wish i also have a good voice for me to serenade Mr. Frank Buescher as well.. :) haha.. but poor me, im only good in dancing talaga.. :)

@ Mandarin Oriental Suites, Gateway Mall


while waiting for Mr. Frank Buescher


with boss boy & sir salamat


close to ZAFIRE..hehe


with my cousin, aylwin

>> the next day, we had our meeting in the office and afterwards, we headed straight to Villa Antonina Resort for Zafire Luzon's Summer Outing.. located just near my house..hehe.. actually it was just few steps from my house.. :) though it was raining so hard that day and eventhough there's a typhoon, still our summer outing was pushed thru.. Foods and beers were overflowing and also "pulutan" for the boys were present.. Videoke was also present in our villa that time.. and infairness, my singing capability was tested..haha.. maybe that's the reason why the heavy rain lasted 'til the next day.. haha it was all my fault i guess..:D obtw, fyi only.. i didn't hold the microphone for me to sing ha, i just sang with them in chorus.. i love singing though the songs really don't love my voice..hehe.. i just chose some songs for them to sing and for me to sing with them in chorus.. hehe that's how i play my part n the videoke..:) also, eventhough the weather's not good.. we still had the chance to swim.. but i just lasted in the pool for i guess two and a half hours.. the water was gettin' colder kc, and im wearing a 2pc swimsuit that time kaya siguro nilamig ako..hehe.. that's why i decided not to wear only the 2pc and to wear some cover-ups (a sphaggetti strap and a billabong shorts).. hehe..:) then after i took a shower, i just concentrated in eating, txting and singing with the videoke masters (aylwin, deo and sir allan) and of course the boys of zafire who were all busy drinking and thinking cgro how they'll put all those beers in their stomachs.. hehe.. overflowing kc tlg ang beers that night.. :)

ma'am ludz & sir allan_videoke time =)


with mama arth preparing our veggie salad.. yummy! :D


one of the videoke masters_sir allan =)


tamang inuman (our kampay session)


ma'am sally, sir arth, ma'am jay, deo and kuya raymund of Lifeline


the boys "kampay" session


videoke master # 2_kapatad na deo




in one of the rooms of our villa


kapatad na donnie & bon-bon





private pool of Villa Antonina Resort







with sleepy bon-bon


view sa taas ng villa.. :)


with kapatad na deo


insan aylwin humabol nalang..from his "Soul'd Out" Concert (a Christian gathering concert)yey! =)..

updating...

Sunday, May 11, 2008

oh well, its been a while since my last update on this blog.. hehe sooo toxic kc with demos, lectures and presentations..:) but still i managed to have time for some gimmicks with my friends.. time management is really so important.. :)

last april 30 & may 1.. been to Punta de Uian, Pundaquit San Antonio Zambales with my friends_MeangurLs.. :) this resort is where Marimar and Palos had their shooting last time, in case you guys don't know.. and it's actually the best resort in Pundaquit so far.. others kc are of poor quality service.. and you can only go to Punta de Uian by reservations.. and mind you it's always a fully-booked resort.. super dami kc ng mga pumupunta at gustong magpunta.. so just be patient in scheduling your reservations, kc most of the time puro fully-booked tlg.. im the organizer of our "this year's summer getaway", so i see to it that everything will be okei..:) supposedly, we were planning to go there last april pa.. around 2nd and 3rd week of april, and dapat weekends kso puro fully-booked nga kaya nauwi kme sa april 30 and may 1.. pero good thing nMn kc lahat kme available on that dates.. hehe.. :) and todo negotiate aq s front desk para makadiscount kme, and sa pag island hopping nga nMn.. buti nMn my charms still worked and proven effective.. hehe kinausap p tlg ung resort manager eh.. :)hehe

we rili had a great summer getaway.. we had a chance to go island hopping, to camara and capones island.. :) we went also to the lighthouse of capones island.. when we reached the top of the lihthouse, it was so breathtaking.. the overlooking scenery was great.. although it was tiring to reach the top of the lighthouse, but it was indeed worth it.. :) great experience for us.. :)
obtw, after reaching camara island and on our way to capones.. before we reached capones island, muntik na po kameng mastranded sa aming bangka.. hehe.. ung bangka kc na sinakyan nMn e nasiraan.. and ang masama pa, wala man saming apat ang nakaicp na magdala ng phone..hehe.. pero ung videocam and cameras nMn eh dala dala nMn..hahaha.. buti nlng at naayos ni manong bangkero kundi stranded ang abot nMn sa bangkang un.. at super layo n nMn s resort at malayo p din ang capones nun.. haha.. but God is good.. we're still safe.. :)




Camara Island


Capones Island



goin' up the Lighthouse


at last, on top of the Lighthouse


seeing the breathtaking view of the island


hmmm.. wat a coincidence nMn.. i was browsing my friendster account, opening my recent bulletins when suddenly mejo nacaught ng attention k ung isang bulletin.. :p so i opened his account and saw that they (his friends) also went to pundaquit san antonio zambales.. and been to capones island din.. hmmmm.. is dat a coincidence or wat?.. oh well whatever.. guess they also enjoyed.. haha.. :) pareho p ata kme ng kimono ni girl, hehe never mind.. :D

..the videos/documentary of our summer getaway will be uploaded soon.. no time for now.. :) mejo tinatamad kc aq.. hehe.. so next time nlng...

..my puerto galera getaway was postponed.. supposedly it was last May 9-11.. but since it was raining so hard in batangas area last friday and that there's a typhoon daw and included ang mindoro, so we postponed it muna.. rili sad.. :( but there's still next time.. so we planned of rescheduling our bookings, but no specific dates yet.. :)

..hmmm, so instead of going to puerto galera.. i watched IronMan nlng with roma-myka a while ago and bought my mom a gift, after ipachange oil c sleek s mazda.. done with the 1st 1000km.. :) Happy Mother's Day to all mothers out there.. hehe..

..i still don't know where i would treat my family out for dinner tomorrow.. since it's Mother's Day and on monday, it's my dad's birthday.. so i juz plan to have a dinner treat nlng para sabay nlng and para mejo tipid.. hehe.. :)

..okei, i feel sleepy na.. nid some beauty rest na.. hehe bye for now.. :)

flattered mode.. :)

thanks kitz for the song.. Heaven.. as in shey_07_hvn..hehe.. galing tlg magcompose ng songs.. hehe.. im rili impressed for the second time around.. 1st song is SamDay and second song is Heaven.. grabe! u rili have talent in composing songs, playing the guitar, and singing your heart out..hehe.. :)

~she's got talent!!!~

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

wow! another talented PINAY (Madonna Decena).. :) a proud to be pinay & mom.. with two daughters and she's a single parent btw.. she joined Britain Got Talent not just for the sake of reaching for her dreams, or aiming for popularity or fame.. but for a more important purpose of saving money for her daughter's future.. incredible indeed.. awwww.. :) money is really hard to earn here in the Philippines.. that's why she had no choice but to leave the Philippines to earn money abroad for her daughters.. pretty tough choice. but i think she's starting to get what she wants.. it's like an aswered prayer for her.. hmmm, good for her right? :)

beautiful voice, very fantastic!.. whew, standing ovation from the audience.. i think she has a really huge chance of getting to the finals.. :) Go Girl.. :)

Friday, April 25, 2008

***so been to manila today and just got home.. whew! so tiring.. but as u can see, i still have time to write somethin' here in my blog.. :) we had our training at sysmex office, west ave.. it's bout doin some troubleshooting in case our machines have some errors.. im talking here 'bout our sysmex high end analyzers (XS, XT & XE machines or our X-series machines).. i like this training because here its more of application rather than discussion and lectures.. we were trained a while ago on how to pre install softwares/applications and doin' some configurations on our machines.. felt like im rili an engineer/i.t..haha.. sooo challenging.. :) and including the internal parts of the machines were removed, and its us who re-install everything including the wirings and tubings and some boards.. haha.. learned something of hydraulics, schematic diagrams, wirings, and tubings etc.. im pretty sure that if ur an engineer ur rili aware of these terms.. at first, my mind was rili blank.. coz i can't absorb.. its like, huh???? what's that??.. something new.. new with those terms.. haha.. but eventually, as the training continues, im actually loving the training.. esp. the application part.. ehem.. ehem.. specialist?.. haha..
after the training, as i knw i'll meet someone, a friend.. he said that he'll go and see me at west ave.. then have a dinner/coffee daw.. but his plan was cancelled.. because he had an emergency, uhmmm.. reason was valid nMn.. he had an emergency meeting with a client.. so nxt time nlng i guess.. and he called me up nMn to apologize for postponing the meet up thingy.. :)
so after at sysmex office, we proceeded to zafire manila office to get some stocks.. and then had dinner at trinoma with my kapatad mike.. :) he treated me to dinner, hehe.. at aVeneto Pizzeria Ristorante.. hehe my choice of place to eat..:D just imagine, nacancel ung first lakad k, pero gud thing nMn kc dinner treat din wiht kapatad na mike..hehe.. i ordered the aVeneto family platter (the best).. i love their chicken.. and pizza of course.. plus our drinks.. hehe, aq n nga nilibre aq p namili ng place noh.. hihi.. actually, sbe nMn nia kng san k like.. so aun.. :) rili love the food there, naparami kaen k kc libre, nyahaha.. esp. the chicken, i had three out of four chickens and the pizza.. haha.. :) we had too many kwentos, even our internship days at vet were all brought up.. haha.. including topics that were not to be tackled were tackled.. haha.. but nweiz, its okei.. he's my kapatad naMan.. :)



aVeneto Family Platter (i love it) :)

after eating, he bought a shades, and i bought a 2pc from Nothing But Water.. :) finally, because it was around 8:30 na so we go home na.. i handed him the key, and have him as my driver nung pauwe..haha.. tnx kapatad for the treat and for bein' my driver on our way home..:)

~my first lecture?.. at ICMC~

Thursday, April 24, 2008

>> so i had my lecture a while ago at ICMC.. first part was the Pre Analytical Variables and second part was 'bout the 3-Part Differential Histograms and Flaggings.. so there, at first im totally shy to introduce myself as the Applications Specialist of ZDI Luzon.. why?.. because ICMC is my account and im pretty sure that they will all be shocked.. actually, i never mentioned it beforehand.. i just told Sir Val, the CMT that our Applications Specialist will be conducting a lecture, so we need to schedule it but he don't know yet that it was ME.. it was just right there and then that i mentioned 'bout it.. so, ayun, tamang hinala aq.. they're all shocked.. but they're all happy nMn that im promoted for the position.. but im also a bit sad, because nxt month i'll be endorsing my area(Olongapo, Bataan & Zambales) to our newest sales rep and finally leaving my area na.. haaay, i rili hate goodbyes!.. a while ago, it was rili hard for me to say those things but i know nMn that i still gonna have the chance to visit them again but not anymore as a rep, but as an Applications Specialist who answers all their concerns/problems regarding our machine..
>> it took me 1 hr & 30 mins to discuss the lecture (question and answer included already).. buti nlng they all listened very well and understood the topics well.. and its good that i've answered all they're questions very well and that i have imparted the knowledge i had to them.. for me knowing the feedbacks from your listeners was good and it's actually very relieving on my part to know that they all have gained something from me with the topics i've tackled..
>> btw, i had so many audience that time, there were some usiseros (other reps kasama c friend haha na bglang dumating s lab, and some nurses from the E.R who were all watchin' and listening outside while im discussing..haha.. mejo naconscious aq xempre pero 2loi p rin s pagdi2discuss..haha :))
>> its really true pla, na iba ung feeling once you are in front of your listeners or clients.. naka2kaba na naka2thrill tlg.. and hnd pla bsta2 na salita k lng ng salita or discuss k lng ng discuss.. you should discuss it in a way na lahat ng audience m will get to understand the topics very well, and u need to create some pictures or scenarios na maiintindihan nla, in order for them na ma-pick up ng husto ung gusto mong iparating.. and as an Applications Specialist, you should all know detail per detail.. para lahat ng questions in case masa2got m..
>> so for me, this really serves as a challenge.. im given this promotion and opportunity and i know na they have seen my potential that's why i've been given this job.. so i really need to study, study, study.. haha again.. and again.. for me to be ready all the time.. grabe, sobrang laking responsibility nito because i'll be handling the whole Luzon branch.. so i do hope na kayanin k tlg.. hmmmm... crossed fingers.. :) To God be the Glory! and also, please pray for me.. :)

~the BLACK SUEDE_VSMMC sandal~

Monday, April 21, 2008

i got curious on the news that talked 'bout these "VSMMC Doctors Unethical Practice".. so what i did.. i searched it on the net to actually see it for myself the whole video of it.. and what to say now?.. Shame on these Doctors & Nurses tlg!!! grabe, it's rili soooo unethical.. and the fact that they took a video of it showing these doctors and nurses laughing out loud and feasting on him while the patient doesn't know what's goin' on.. that's totally 'WTF'... i know a lot of good doctors out there.. and super kahi2yan s part ng mga ibang doctors ang ginawa ng mga 'to.. parang pati ung iba tuloy (good doctors) eh nadamay dahil d2.. this "unethical team of VSMMC" were considered a trash to the medical society.. are they rili doctors & nurses?.. parang kcng hind naturuan ng code of ethics eh.. super kawawa kc ung patient, he was so innocent and doesn't know what's the actual scenario when his surgery happened.. super pinagtawanan xa and i totally can say na super manliliit k nga tlg ng tingin s sarili m dahil dun.. whew! yeah, i know mejo katawa nga na "a body spray" was inserted on his rectum by a total stranger he had a sexual intercourse for a night.. pero kagustuhan b nia na mangyare un?.. and okei lng cgro na matawa for a moment but not to the extent na pagpiyestahan xa and kunan p ng actual video while having the surgery and uploading the video on youtube.. super Shame on this student nurse who uploaded it.. yan 2loi d xa ggraduate dhil s ginawa niang un.. tsk tsk tsk... and this i rili can't take.. it was especially distasteful when several of them exclaimed, “BABY OUT!” when the spray can: Avon's Black Suede's for men was finally removed... and they were all laughing tlg.. grabe!!
..for me, tama lng na nagfile ng complaint and case ung patient na un.. para naman maturuan ng lesson mga persons involved.. at least dis serves as an "eye opener" to all the people in the medical field.. and not to imitate this kind of act.. kng ayaw niong magaya and mawalan ng license...
..so to all future doctors and nurses.. may this serve as a lesson to you guys..=) hmmmm.. dami k pa man ding friends na future doctors n nyan.. hehe.. Good luck guys.. =)
..o xa, thats all my opinion lng nMn.. u can agree or disagree with me nMn.. what the heck if u don't agree with me.. as i said its all my opinion.. aryt?..

hirs the video nga pla, in case you haven't seen it yet..
the BLACK SUEDE_VSMMC scandal

panic attack: 4/16/08

Thursday, April 17, 2008

*zajh's battery's dead.. :c

what a day for me.. argh! it was really sooo bad... i was in balanga bataan a while ago, doin' my rounds.. i have no idea that it will be happening.. honestly.. so as usual.. the typical shey "panicked".. oh gosh.. i wont forget this day.. i parked my car -- zajh in front of st joseph hospital.. do my thing of course, covered ma'am lorraine, the chief medtech.. delivered stocks and followed up the collection.. and then, after that.. im 'bout to go to ICMC when i, suddenly wasn't able to start the engine.. i repeated again and again.. but zajh really can't.. so there, i knew then that the problem might be the battery.. i hurriedly called for help.. called the "manong" who was then busy assisting some of the cars in getting their parking and reversing their cars when they leave the parking area.. also called for help in the shop where zajh was nearly located.. including some tric drivers who were "usiseros" at that time.. haha.. asked them if what should i do, how can i start the engine, where's the nearest auto supply where i can buy a new battery if in case it was rili dead.. luckily the people out there at that time were all nice to me, gave the assistance i needed.. until we, oh no -- they finally fixed zajh's batt.. despite the direct heat of the sun at that time and all those sweats.. gosh, all i can say.. they're really nice people.. =)

honestly, i just know how to drive and do some carwash.. but i really don't know something when it comes to fixing the engine or those kind of troubleshooting and even changing flat tires.. hmmmm guess, i need to exert an effort from now to know these kind of things.. so that i would know what i need to do when these things happen again.. we really can't tell when will these things happen again aryt?.. so we just need to be ready all the time.. hmmm, my bad!..

so wat happen to me a while ago was a total disaster.. but because of the good help i received from them, i survived.. haha.. thanks to all those guys..=) of course, i paid them for the help and effort they gave.. gave them their kanya-kanyang pang merienda.. =) i guess that's fair enough.. 100php per person was enough aryt?.. and that disaster happened during lunch time.. so i guess 100 bux per person was fair enough for them to have their good lunch, after the disturbance i caused them just for me to start zajh's engine and continue with my rounds again.. hay, bad day.. but its okay, at least now i know what i should do the next time.. =) it's really time for me to learn those kind of stuffs.. haha.. tigas kc ng ulo k eh.. haha, Goodluck! :))

What I'm Loving: Something Right by Westlife :)

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Never thought that I'd be so inspired
Never thought that I'd find the higher truth
I believed that love was overrated
'Till the moment I found you

Now baby I know I don't deserve
The love you give me
But now I understand that

If you want me I must be doing something right
I got nothing left to prove
And it's all because of you
So if you need me
And baby I make you feel alive
I know I must be doing
Doing something right

It's because of you I feel so lifted
I've been looking at my life from higher ground
Never thought I'd be so elated
You're the one that turned it all around

Now baby, I didn't know myself
Until you changed me
And made me understand that

If you want me I must be doing something right
I got nothing left to prove
And it's all because of you
So if you need me
And baby I make you feel alive
I know I must be doing
Doing something right
Oohhh

And baby I know I don't deserve the love you give me
But I don't really care, cause

If you want me I must be doing something right
I got nothing left to prove
And it's all because of you
So if you need me
And baby I make you feel alive
I know I must be doing (I know I must be doing)
Doing something right (Doing something right)

Doing something right
Yeah yeah
Something right

So if you need me
And baby I make you feel alive
I know I must be doing (I know I must be doing)
Must be doing something right
Yeah yeah
Something right...

What I'm Loving: Your Love Is a Lie by Simple Plan

Saturday, April 12, 2008



I fall asleep by the telephone
It’s two o’clock and I’m waiting up alone
Tell me, where have you been?
I found a note with another name
You blow a kiss but it just don’t feel the same
Cause I can feel that you’re gone
I can’t bite my tongue forever, while you try to play it cool
You can hide behind your stories, but don’t take me for a fool

You can tell me that there’s nobody else (but I feel it)
You can tell me that you’re home by yourself (but I see it)
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know, I know
Your love is just a lie
It’s nothing but a lie

You look so innocent
But the guilt in your voice gives you away
Yeah, you know what I mean
How does it feel when you kiss when you know that I trust you
And do you think about me when he f**ks you?
Could you be more obscene?
So don’t try to say you’re sorry, or try to make it right
And don’t waste your breath because it’s too late, it’s too late

You can tell me that there’s nobody else
You can tell me that you’re home by yourself
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want, but I know, I know
Your love is just a lie (Lie! Lie! Lie!)
It’s nothing but a lie (Lie! Lie! Lie!)
You’re nothing but a lie...

>>hmmm.. love this song so much.. =) and i don't wanna be in this kind of situation.. for sure, i'l be goin' nuts.. whew!..

dinner @ hana-mi

..been craving for maki and sushi dis past few days.. so where's the place to be?.. i think hana-mi is one.. =)



Luckily, after our meeting a while ago in the office, sir allan invited us to have our dinner first before finally goin' home.. actually, the plan is that he's inviting us to try the spa at Clark called the Well Being Spa.. but because some were in a hurry to go home so he just decided and asked us if we'd like to have our dinner.. so majority of the reps agreed including me of course.. =) ate bing suggested to eat at ShinBi, and then sir arth and i have the same suggestion, to eat at hana-mi instead of shinbi.. yey, luckily they all agreed.. =)

in case u don't know yet.. Hana-mi means "cherry-blossom viewing", it is a spring custom in Japan..

..The glory of Hanami, rather than the sushi, is the variety of cooked Japanese dishes that make up about half the menu. These preparations are the backbone of home-style Japanese cuisine and often get short shrift at most Japanese restaurants, also eager to capture a part of America's sushi frenzy..

>> so guys, drool over the pix of what we ordered.. like what i've said, it's my craving for now so what i did?? pig out!!.. haha.. :))

>> these were the pix i took from my cam, i didn't get the chance to take a pic of all our orders.. hehe bka maubusan kc aq eh.. :))


~tofu steak~



~seafood ramen~



~ika fry~



~Hanami Maki--my fave~





~my chopsticks~





~my work of art--walang magawa s garnish..haha~


OBTW, Thanks to Sir Allan.. we didn't know at first that it was a treat.. haha.. hmmmm.. sarap tlg pag libre.. :))