..i call it 'derma marathon'

..my derma marathon started today!!! yicks... i think i need to be numb for me not to feel the pain... even though Dra. Madge applied anesthesia on my face, still i can feel the pain... oh btw, i'm talking about the "derm roller and stretching procedure" and those were the things i call 'derma marathon'... oh crap, very expensive procedure indeed but i really badly need it... 'sigh'

..need to get rid of this pimple mark/s on my left cheek.... pls, pls GO AWAY!!!

..yes, yes, yes... this was the pimple mark noticed by the RBA employer... :( the one on my left cheek area! :( that's me when i don't have any make up on my face at all.....pale, pale,pale! good morning everyone! :)

..indeed, a Flight Attendant hopeful should have a clear (oh sooo clear) face... tsk tsk... :( why am i not blessed with a zit-free face??? :( why is it that when i have zit/s, it will leave me a brown mark/spot on my face??? haaayyyyy.. :(

..i decided to have my derma procedure/treatment done by Dra. Majella Arenas of Xensiderm.. :) very nice and supportive dermatologist... i recommend her to you guys... :)

 ..Dra Madge just finished applying anesthesia here... need to wait for 30 minutes for the anesthesia to take effect... :)

 ..i look so serious here??? deep inside i'm praying 'coz i'm so damn nervous with the procedure... saw the fine needles that will roll my face then.... crappy! :-(

..this shots were during the actual procedure... oh gawd, eventhough there's anesthesia, still i felt the pain... terribly painful... :-( sorry for these pictures, yeah i know..bloody...gross ryt?.. yick!
 

..procedure done! i SURVIVED the first session... yhay! five more sessions to go on the coming weeks... :)

 ..bought these things after... will be needing these sunblock and hypo soap, as well as the other solutions given by YSA Skin Care as recommended by Dra Madge... =)

..for me, i'll take my RBA experience as a "challenge".... :)  if i'm not meant for RBA, then i think and i believe i deserve something much better than that... :) Nothing is impossible with God... :)

..and to tell you, i had a very important message today from God in my FB account...
                   On this day, God wants you know....that there is a time and a season for everything. It may be a time of new beginnings, a time of growth, a time of reaping the harvest of hard work, or a time of rest. Trust this beautiful order. Everything in its time. =)

..perfect timing right?.. :) and i take this message as a SIGN... :) yhay!!! :)

..May God bless us all... :)

..my RBA experience

As seen in my previous post, I thought I wasn’t included in the shortlisted candidates for Royal Brunei Airlines… but to my surprise, I received a text message from PERT agency last Tuesday (May 25) at around 9PM informing me to report the next day at 8am in Pan Pacific Hotel for an employer interview. Oh gawd, very very late notice… I was in Baguio then..:(

The next day 8am, I registered my name in the attendance sheet… I reviewed Melissa’s handouts which was given to them the other day, because they said that the exam that will be given during that day would be all about RBA and “geography” stuff… :D haha, goodluck right!?! :D
When the employer came ( I think they were 5 if I remember it right)..they took our height and weight one by one… some who didn’t meet the said height requirement (minimum height btw is 5’3.5”) were told right there and then that “I’m sorry you can’t continue, thanks for trying”…

..And there my turn came, I’m really fortunate enough that I've reached their height requirement… =)

Second stage : 2 sets of exam ( 1st – English/grammar test and 2nd – Geography)… the 1st test was just easy, but the second test I find it hard ‘coz I wasn’t able to review much on the handouts given to them... I just scanned Melissa’s handouts when I reached the hotel… (oh btw, thanks mhel for your handouts…)
After the exam, we were grouped in two… the first batch will stay for their Final interview with the employer.. the second batch were informed to be back at 1:30PM or after lunch… and I belong to the second batch.. =)

When my turn was called… there were 2 ladies in the room (one is currently a cabin crew of RBA)… they asked me of my name and the lady who’s a cabin crew noticed my pimple scar on my left cheek which was really visible at that time… I was instructed to go near her so that she can see it clearly… and the lady asked if where did I get it and if I’m undergoing some derma procedure… and I answered honestly and said “YES” and I’m undergoing some derma procedures right now… and there she told me if how many weeks/months would I need for it to be removed and I again answered “a month for me to complete the whole 6 sessions”… and they talked in another language which I can't understand what they were saying or discussing to each other… after which, the lady cabin crew told me to be back at the agency after a month and they will check again for my face if the pimple scar is already totally gone… and there, they didn’t anymore continue the interview part, and just advised me to call the PERT agency and be back after a month when I finished my derma sessions… I said thank you to them and told them that I’ll be back after a month ‘coz I really want to be a cabin crew for RBA… and the lady cabin crew said with matching a thumbs up sign on her hand “I like your attitude and your motivation..be back after a month”…
Whew! and that was it… the end of my conversation with them… So when I came out of the room, I informed Ma’am Cherry of PERT of what the employer have said.. and she said, okay will just take note of that and she smiled and said be back after a month…
That was it… On my way to the car, I told my dad who assisted me to Pan Pacific Hotel of the whole conversation I had with the employer… and he said, “sige tapusin mo na yung pagpapaderma mo, malay mo naman totoo talaga sinasabe nila na bumalik ka after a month” and “kung hindi man totoo yun marami pang ibang airlines dyan.. may First Champion ka pa db?”.. So there, I remembered again my First Champion (Saudia) thingy… and that one I’m really eyeing to…

And I asked my dad that before we go home, I need to see Dra Madge to inform her of my RBA experience.. I’m glad she understood me very well, and is really willing to help me to finally achieve a clearer face faster, and get rid of that pimple mark left on my left cheek. And so the “derma marathon” will start this Saturday and I need to see her “WEEKLY” for a faster result… grabeee, sakit sa bulsa nito.. go, go, go sa pagpapaganda talaga for that dream job!!! =)

To tell you guys, I’m a bit depressed actually because I wasn’t able to reach the “real interview part” with the employer that day… but because I am "Ms. Brightside", I don’t want to entertatin those bad vibes and I just want to focus on the part that they want me to be back after a month… yeah, in a sense it may be absurd but I am going to try it.. that’s how determined and motivated I am to be a cabin crew… malay natin totoo sinasabe ng RBA db?.. and it’s also one way of improving myself better na rin para next time, clear of pimple mark/s na ang aking face…:)

And now, I’d like to leave you with this verse. Just for us to be reminded again.. =)
        
             .."For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." ~Jeremiah 29:11

A Quick Update

Since I knew from PEX that there were girls who already received a text message from PERT last Friday, I called the agency just this afternoon to follow up and confirm the status of my application. The reason why I called is because my phones have no signal from the day the girls received a text from PERT which is Friday, ‘til Saturday because I am in Morong, Bataan attending our company’s summer outing. 

Sad to say, I’m not included on the shortlisted candidates who will be having their Final Interview on May 24, 2010… :( So there you go, this is again another thing to be sad about.. From love life depression and now, career depression… oh crap!  :( sad, sad, sad….(grabe na'to ha, super malas ko naman ata these days...huhu)

For those who were so lucky to receive a text from PERT… Good luck to you ladies. How I wish I’m part of those shortlisted candidates…  

Anyways, that’s life… Life goes on… God bless everyone! And may the good Lord bless me as well… :)

Hoping that we will all achieve our dream of flying soon, in His time… :)

Left Behind.... =(

I was soooo down this past few days because I felt I was now left behind.. My friend, Marie (my fa hopeful buddy) already passed Asiana Airlines. She was one of the twenty lucky girls who made it to the top for Asiana Airlines.. And now, she’s not anymore a “fa hopeful”… I’m happy for her, really.. But I felt sad for myself because I felt I’m now left behind.. Oh yeah, I’m just human to feel that way and I guess it’s so damn normal to feel that way.. I’m really, really happy for her, for her success… But I just can’t help myself sometimes that I’m thinking that we used to be together passing our CVs and NOW she’ll soon FLY.. I thought we could fly together someday.. But those chances were all gone because she’s meant for Asiana.. And as for me, where am i??.. still here and trying to find out what airline I am meant for… I really feel so down, but still have this HOPE because of HIM (God). Hope I could FLY someday just like my friend, Marie… I know God has His own way, and I just need to be more patient. I know it will soon come to me… I BELIEVE! =)
Now I just realized how flygirl (bam) felt when her bestfriend passed NAS Air and she was also left behind. I hope I’ll be like flygirl (bam) for another opportunity came her way after her NAS Air thing, and now she’s with Emirates. They may not be of the same airlines, but right now doing the same passion of flying…and seeing the world..

*** by the way, here’s the blog link of my friend, Marie… She started blogging already.. yhay! =) and I’m just so proud of her success.. FLY HIGH sis.. =)
click http://i-viewfromthetop.blogspot.com/

lovvvee it! very inspiring.... =)

..if you feel like no one's there for you, or you're losing hope to get what we want in life (like our greatest dream of flying), i recommend you to listen to this song... then pray and communicate with God, for you to ligten up what you are feeling inside... it helps! Keep praying guys! We'll all have what we wanted, in HIS perfect time.... just TRUST HIM, keep the FAITH!...

>> you'll see below the link... listen to the song, feel it and Talk to God!.. =)

 
"I Know You're There" by Casting Crowns 


If all I had was one last breath
I'd spend it just to sing Your praise
Just to say Your name
If all I had was one last prayer
I'd pray it 'cause I know You're always listening
If I could live a thousand lives, bind the hands of time
I would spend every moment by Your side

'cause I, I know You're there, I know You see me
You're the air I breathe
You are the ground beneath me
I know You're there, I know You hear me
I can find You anywhere

If all I had was one more song to sing
I would raise a noise to make the heavens ring
If all I had was one last chance, I'd take it
I would stake it all on You

If I could raise up high and catch a glimpse of every eye
I would make them believe
What I feel inside
If I could live a thousand lives and bind the hands of time
If I could rise up high and catch a glimpse of every eye
I know You're there
I know You're there
I know You're there, You're there....


 
---->> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=27KfKpmq9GQ

My Saudia Application

Friday (Jan. 15, 2010) – My friend (Melissa) told me that the Saudia employer is already here in Manila, and will now interview those applicants interviewed by the First Champion agency. And then a friend of mine (Marie), called the agency if we could pass our resume the following day (Saturday)..


Saturday (Jan. 16, 2010) – Woke up early and headed to Manila to submit my resume. Lucky us, (Marie and I), because we were allowed to join those applicants who were scheduled that day for their first interview with the Saudia representative (Mr. Mohamed Latheef).

When it was my turn for the interview (I’m no. 11), here it goes… He took my height, and then asked for my weight. Asked regarding my current work, and describe the function/s of my work. Ha asked me to write two sentences regarding my current job, and read it to him loud and clear. (Others were asked to compute in a piece of paper).. And then took a picture of me using his digicam (one pic sitting in a chair and the other pic standing).. Afterwards, he told me to that the result will come to me soon. I guess the interview took only 5-10 minutes. And that’s it. I’m done..

Monday (January 18, 2010) - Hoping and praying to receive a notification from the agency... Travel time to Cagayan for work related one week schedule.


Tuesday (Jan 19, 2010) – Around 2PM, while I was covering in one of the laboratories at Sta. Ana Cagayan, I luckily received a text message coming from Ms. Jaja of First Champion. And here’s the actual text…

After reading the message, I was shocked and then called Ms. Jaja right away to explain to her that I can’t report tomorrow to see Mr. Latheef because I’m in Cagayan which we know that’s so, so far away from Manila. I asked her ‘til when is Mr. Latheef here in Manila, and Ms. Jaja told me that Friday (Jan22, 2010) is his flight. So I told Ms. Jaja then, that I’ll text her right away if I can come back to Manila to attend and see Mr. Latheef the next day.

After talking to Ms. Jaja on the phone, what I did was, I hurriedly cancelled all my appointments (lecture presentations) for the next day, and informed the 2 laboratories that I have to come back to Pampanga due to an emergency at home. And rescheduled my lecture presentations to them on Friday (Jan 22, 2010). I really promised to them that I’ll be back on Friday. Luckily, they all agreed.

So that Tuesday night, I travelled all the way from Cagayan to meet Mr. Latheef the next day. Oh by the way, Cagayan to Manila is a 12 hrs travel by land. But I made it for just 10 hrs drive. I reached Manila at around 5:30AM. No sleep at all. I stayed at my younger sister’s bf’s house where I took a bath after I had coffee and a 1 hour break, and then prepared and psyched myself in meeting Mr. Latheef for the second time.

Wednesday (Jan 20, 2010) – Around 11:30AM (I’m no. 4).. My turn came. He again measured my height, because there was some changes with their height measurement.. It was increased to 1-2cms higher I think because my previous height differs from my height the second time he measured it.. Then checked my face, legs, feet, smile and teeth. This time around I’m really, really so nervous that my redness appeared in the neck/near my chest area where he noticed it. I told him that it’s because I’m really just so nervous that time that’s why the redness appeared. He told me that I shouldn’t be nervous because I’m one of the selected ladies who will meet the Saudia delegate soon. He graded me and put an “A” on my record list. He told me he has chosen 21 ladies already and he still needs 4 ladies to go before he leaves the Philippines. And that’s it, I'm done.

I’m happy to hear the news from him that time, and I’m really very glad that all my efforts of going to Manila from Cagayan paid off and was all worth it… Lucky me i guess! And God is really so GOOD! =) I am now really hoping that I really, truly passed, and be one of the lucky ladies who will be selected again by the Saudia delegate on April/May.. Pray for me sisses.. please??? =)

take a PEEK! =)

Hello there...

..I just want to show you my Vision Board for 2010... =) Thanks to miss 'powerpinay/superjezzi' for inspiring me to make my own vision board again. Honestly, I'm also a believer of Vision Boards.. but during those years that I'm fond of doing it, I actually look into the magazines for cut outs... (ganon ako kasipag noon..pero ngayon tamad na..haha kaya 'Visions In The Sky' nalang talaga)...
..But since i was really inspired by 'powerpinay/superjezzi' to make again a REAL vision board.. so here's mine, have a look! =) I started doin' it after Christmas, and then just resumed and finished looking for captions in the magazines just after my confinement... 

** I guess it's no need to explain much regarding my vision board.. because the pictures/captions tells it ALL!!! =)

** Thanks again Miss 'Powerpinay/SuperJezzi'... ÜÜÜ

HELLO 2010! Ü

My year 2009 has been a good year for me. Even though I’ve experienced a lot of struggles and difficulties, it was still a good year that I’ve learned new things and made me become a stronger, I mean a “much stronger person”.

This year became a topsy-turvy year for my love life. And since we parted and ended our relationship as bf-gf. I’m still very thankful that we ended up friends... Yes, it was so hard for me to give up on him.

This December, for the nth time that he have asked me to marry him....

I answered him “Gusto kong pakasal sa’yo kaso makakapaghintay ka ba ng 3-4yrs pa???”

Why does 3-4yrs very important to me? It’s because I’d like to reach my FA dream in which he’s not in favor of. We all know that a lot of airlines prefer single girls than married. And if ever I’ll get IN and sign a contract, based from what I knew you need to be single for at least 3-4yrs. His reason why he doesn’t like me to be an FA is because He already has the means of having a family. Yeah, indeed he’s financially stable because he’s a seaman, CHEF in particular. He’s earning pounds in London in which you can say “na buhay na buhay ka na talaga sa kanya”...

“Kahit daw di na ko magwork kayang-kaya na nga”...

And according to him based from my work, I really don’t need to be an FA, because..

“okay na daw salary and incentives ko para mabuhay dito sa Pinas na hindi malalayo sa family and loved ones ko”... “Ano pa daw bang hinahanap ko, bakit di daw ako makuntento sa kung anong meron ako ngayon”...

My point was I’m thinking of what about my lifelong dream??? Would I just disregard it and put it to waste? Knowing that there’s a voice inside me saying to reach and go for it. I prayed, really prayed for it that he could open his heart for the idea that this is my DREAM and I want to fulfil it, and that he should wait a little longer. But he remained close-minded about my FA dream. And I guess that’s a sign that I should end my relationship with him, and that he should find someone else that can marry him just as he wished, NOW. I have decided, it was really so hard for me to decide, to choose from love and a dream that I want to be for real, and there I chose to follow my heart in reaching my dream, and said I love you Goodbye... I now believe with what I heard from the movie “I LOVE YOU GOODBYE” that sometimes I LOVE YOU means GOODBYE....

He wasn’t really supportive of me with that dream, and I think that “partly” it contributed why I failed a lot of times this year. I didn’t get his BLESSING of me reaching my FA dream....

So now guys, can you tell me if I did the right thing or what???...

Also, I would like to take this opportunity to thank my fellow FA aspirants... Thanks for sharing your thoughts or experiences regarding your applications. And because I’m taking this journey in fulfilling my FA dream, I met a lot of FA wannabe's whom I gained as friends... Even though I lost a bf, I’m still very thankful to meet and have gained new friends... And me being Ms. Brightside, I’m really looking on the brighter side of life, that when one door closes, a window will soon open... and I’m looking forward to that this coming year 2010.

Let’s all pray that all our wishes for the coming year, 2010 be for real. And that we can all SOAR and FLY HIGH. =)


HAPPY NEW YEAR EARTHLINGS! Ü

I Can't Give Up On It Right Now...

Yes, I’m tired of my work as a P.A.S, and seriously, I’m thinking of resigning from work... That thought actually ran through my mind a couple of months ago, just last September I guess... I've been to a point where my resignation letter is all set, just have to print it and finally pass it directly to my Big Boss... but I prayed for it, really asked for God’s guidance and contemplated a lot regarding this matter... I’m a believer of signs, so I asked the Lord for some signs. And yes I was given some "signs" if I’ll continue to pass my resignation letter before the year ends or not... Seriously it was not a great idea for me to resign because I have no back up work or there’s no “new work” waiting for me, but just the mere fact that I want it to stop because I’m terribly TIRED and I want a NEW career... that’s just what I’m thinking then.. and so the Lord gave me signs.. SIGNS that I shouldn’t give up, not now... and that I should WAIT a little more.. I can’t mention those “signs” here in my blog, because I guess it’s just for me.. So guys I’m really sorry if I can’t spill it here.. I hope you do understand...



And I do realized after I was given the ‘signs’ that I really shouldn’t resign from my work because I have a car and a house to pay monthly... o’well yeah, when I had this urge of resigning I certainly haven’t thought of my car and my house... impulsive thinking i guess.. my bad after all... if I’ve pushed through with my resignation, I can’t pay for these blessings... I’m thanking the Lord with all these blessings He had given me and that at this early age of 25 I have my own car and my own house... a simple car and a simple house, but for me it’s a huge, huge blessing coming from Him. All the hardwork really paid off... =)

my crib =)

my car - zajh

So now, I can say that I really can’t give up on my career as a Product and Applications Specialist. But if time comes that the Lord will let me follow my dream and be a cabin crew, then let it be! He knows what’s best for us... So trust your Life with the Lord, our God... =)

Backtracking my Career :)

---> Four years ago



After I finished my studies and passed the Medical Technology Board Exam last September 2005, I took a rest for a month, and began thinking of what would be the best career for me. Thoughts of becoming a Pharma Rep was then my ultimate dream. I then started applying for Unilab and Natrapharm, experienced series of interviews, panel interviews and product detailing. But then I thought why not I apply for a Diagnostic Company instead of a Pharmaceutical Company so that my course would be somewhat related to it. So there it goes, I applied for Zafire Distributors Inc., as a Technical Sales Representative. I fortunately got in and that was the start of my “SALES” career.


After three years as a Technical Sales Representative (TSR), I was then promoted to become the Product and Applications Specialist for the whole Luzon area. After a year as a P.A.S, there came my continuous thought of pursuing my childhood dream, which is to become a Flight Attendant/Cabin Crew. I want to travel more, not only here in the Philippines but I like it to be worldwide. I want to see the world, meet new people and learn different cultures and traditions. My drive to pursue my “FA dream” grew stronger every day. Every time I have spare time, I would normally google my dream and click different sites of FA's themselves which inspires and motivates me a lot to become one. Also I decided to join PEX (Pinoy Exchange forum)for me to get more infos regarding application of different airlines, requirements and how the applications and interviews goes like.


And at this moment, I had series of applications (oh yeah, 4x with Qatar Airways and once for Emirates just this year, 2009) but unfortunately wasn’t able to make it through. Talk about depression due to this failed applications, I wouldn’t deny that fact. I guess it’s pretty normal for a person to be depressed especially if he/she didn’t get what she wanted. And these series of failed applications won’t stop me from reaching my dream. I would certainly not stop ‘til I reach the top. I know in time I’ll be flying and I’ll soon see the world. I honestly admit the fact that I’m seeing myself as one, and that I am already having some visions of me in the sky. And I can’t wait to say this phrase on the plane... “Welcome Aboard!”





** DESTINY is calling me..Open up my EAGER eyes..Coz I’m Ms. BRIGHTSIDE... ;)