HELLO 2010! Ü

Thursday, December 31, 2009

My year 2009 has been a good year for me. Even though I’ve experienced a lot of struggles and difficulties, it was still a good year that I’ve learned new things and made me become a stronger, I mean a “much stronger person”.

This year became a topsy-turvy year for my love life. And since we parted and ended our relationship as bf-gf. I’m still very thankful that we ended up friends... Yes, it was so hard for me to give up on him.

This December, for the nth time that he have asked me to marry him....
I answered him “Gusto kong pakasal sa’yo kaso makakapaghintay ka ba ng 3-4yrs pa???”
Why does 3-4yrs very important to me? It’s because I’d like to reach my FA dream in which he’s not in favor of. We all know that a lot of airlines prefer single girls than married. And if ever I’ll get IN and sign a contract, based from what I knew you need to be single for at least 3-4yrs. His reason why he doesn’t like me to be an FA is because He already has the means of having a family. Yeah, indeed he’s financially stable because he’s a seaman, CHEF in particular. He’s earning pounds in London in which you can say “na buhay na buhay ka na talaga sa kanya”...

“Kahit daw di na ko magwork kayang-kaya na nga”...
And according to him based from my work, I really don’t need to be an FA, because..
“okay na daw salary and incentives ko para mabuhay dito sa Pinas na hindi malalayo sa family and loved ones ko”... “Ano pa daw bang hinahanap ko, bakit di daw ako makuntento sa kung anong meron ako ngayon”...
My point was I’m thinking of what about my lifelong dream??? Would I just disregard it and put it to waste? Knowing that there’s a voice inside me saying to reach and go for it. I prayed, really prayed for it that he could open his heart for the idea that this is my DREAM and I want to fulfil it, and that he should wait a little longer. But he remained close-minded about my FA dream. And I guess that’s a sign that I should end my relationship with him, and that he should find someone else that can marry him just as he wished, NOW. I have decided, it was really so hard for me to decide, to choose from love and a dream that I want to be for real, and there I chose to follow my heart in reaching my dream, and said I love you Goodbye... I now believe with what I heard from the movie “I LOVE YOU GOODBYE” that sometimes I LOVE YOU means GOODBYE....

He wasn’t really supportive of me with that dream, and I think that “partly” it contributed why I failed a lot of times this year. I didn’t get his BLESSING of me reaching my FA dream....

So now guys, can you tell me if I did the right thing or what???...

Also, I would like to take this opportunity to thank my fellow FA aspirants... Thanks for sharing your thoughts or experiences regarding your applications. And because I’m taking this journey in fulfilling my FA dream, I met a lot of FA wannabe's whom I gained as friends... Even though I lost a bf, I’m still very thankful to meet and have gained new friends... And me being Ms. Brightside, I’m really looking on the brighter side of life, that when one door closes, a window will soon open... and I’m looking forward to that this coming year 2010.

Let’s all pray that all our wishes for the coming year, 2010 be for real. And that we can all SOAR and FLY HIGH. =)


I Can't Give Up On It Right Now...

Saturday, December 26, 2009

Yes, I’m tired of my work as a P.A.S, and seriously, I’m thinking of resigning from work... That thought actually ran through my mind a couple of months ago, just last September I guess... I've been to a point where my resignation letter is all set, just have to print it and finally pass it directly to my Big Boss... but I prayed for it, really asked for God’s guidance and contemplated a lot regarding this matter... I’m a believer of signs, so I asked the Lord for some signs. And yes I was given some "signs" if I’ll continue to pass my resignation letter before the year ends or not... Seriously it was not a great idea for me to resign because I have no back up work or there’s no “new work” waiting for me, but just the mere fact that I want it to stop because I’m terribly TIRED and I want a NEW career... that’s just what I’m thinking then.. and so the Lord gave me signs.. SIGNS that I shouldn’t give up, not now... and that I should WAIT a little more.. I can’t mention those “signs” here in my blog, because I guess it’s just for me.. So guys I’m really sorry if I can’t spill it here.. I hope you do understand...

And I do realized after I was given the ‘signs’ that I really shouldn’t resign from my work because I have a car and a house to pay monthly... o’well yeah, when I had this urge of resigning I certainly haven’t thought of my car and my house... impulsive thinking i guess.. my bad after all... if I’ve pushed through with my resignation, I can’t pay for these blessings... I’m thanking the Lord with all these blessings He had given me and that at this early age of 25 I have my own car and my own house... a simple car and a simple house, but for me it’s a huge, huge blessing coming from Him. All the hardwork really paid off... =)

my crib =)

my car - zajh

So now, I can say that I really can’t give up on my career as a Product and Applications Specialist. But if time comes that the Lord will let me follow my dream and be a cabin crew, then let it be! He knows what’s best for us... So trust your Life with the Lord, our God... =)

Backtracking my Career :)

---> Four years ago

After I finished my studies and passed the Medical Technology Board Exam last September 2005, I took a rest for a month, and began thinking of what would be the best career for me. Thoughts of becoming a Pharma Rep was then my ultimate dream. I then started applying for Unilab and Natrapharm, experienced series of interviews, panel interviews and product detailing. But then I thought why not I apply for a Diagnostic Company instead of a Pharmaceutical Company so that my course would be somewhat related to it. So there it goes, I applied for Zafire Distributors Inc., as a Technical Sales Representative. I fortunately got in and that was the start of my “SALES” career.

After three years as a Technical Sales Representative (TSR), I was then promoted to become the Product and Applications Specialist for the whole Luzon area. After a year as a P.A.S, there came my continuous thought of pursuing my childhood dream, which is to become a Flight Attendant/Cabin Crew. I want to travel more, not only here in the Philippines but I like it to be worldwide. I want to see the world, meet new people and learn different cultures and traditions. My drive to pursue my “FA dream” grew stronger every day. Every time I have spare time, I would normally google my dream and click different sites of FA's themselves which inspires and motivates me a lot to become one. Also I decided to join PEX (Pinoy Exchange forum)for me to get more infos regarding application of different airlines, requirements and how the applications and interviews goes like.

And at this moment, I had series of applications (oh yeah, 4x with Qatar Airways and once for Emirates just this year, 2009) but unfortunately wasn’t able to make it through. Talk about depression due to this failed applications, I wouldn’t deny that fact. I guess it’s pretty normal for a person to be depressed especially if he/she didn’t get what she wanted. And these series of failed applications won’t stop me from reaching my dream. I would certainly not stop ‘til I reach the top. I know in time I’ll be flying and I’ll soon see the world. I honestly admit the fact that I’m seeing myself as one, and that I am already having some visions of me in the sky. And I can’t wait to say this phrase on the plane... “Welcome Aboard!”

** DESTINY is calling me..Open up my EAGER eyes..Coz I’m Ms. BRIGHTSIDE... ;)


Monday, December 7, 2009

..just wanna share to you guys what my friend (Ate Tin) have written in her blog a couple of days ago... =) I certainly believe and agree with her blog, that's why I'm sharing it to you... =)

Friendship of Ex-Lovers ~ Is it Worth Keeping or Throwing Away?


After having a little chat with one of my Sisses (you’ll know who you are while reading this), I was suddenly inspired to write...

“Friends can be Lovers but Lovers CANNOT be Friends...”

I think this is the most miserable statement of all.

Personally, I believe that Ex-Lovers would make the Best of Friends. Pathetic you may say but I still believe that Ex-Lovers know each other more than anyone else in the world (aside from, of course, their current partners). At some point in their lives, they had become so glued to each other, spent most of their time together and gotten to know every significant person (i.e. family members, relatives, circle of friends) in each other’s lives. They had become the most attentive ear who listened to every word that the other had said ~ whether he recounted a humiliating day or bragged about an achievement... the most generous hand who supported one another whenever needed... the broadest shoulder whom each had cried on... the inspiration, critic, fashion consultant, movie companion, food trip partner, adventure buddy, “Santa Claus” in every occasion (i.e. monthsary, anniversary, birthday, Christmas) , driver, secretary, escort... the all-arounder... In short, they had not only been into a romantic relationship with each other but had also built friendship.

Friendship is a “treasure” that any person could have so why would anyone want to deprive himself of such gift? A person may not be financially well-off but being rich in friendship could make him the happiest to ever live on earth. With this, I think, no person should throw away any relationship that he had, even if it ended so badly. If he would look on it on an optimistic perspective, he would realize that the heart-breaking-soul shattering experience he once had with that person, provided the "loam soil" on which he had grown into a wiser, stronger and more matured person. With that, he would be a better partner to the next person he had chosen to love and get involved with. He also had to admit that he owed his Ex-lover a big chunk of what kind of person (perhaps successful) he had become at the moment. He also had to thank the other person for giving him the chance to meet and gain new friends (i.e. his partner’s family members, relatives, circle of friends) because with that, he became ten folds wealthier.

I really admire those Ex-lovers (this is where you enter Sis) who were able to preserve the friendship that they had. I see it as a sign that they had taken things with maturity and had moved on. There is no more hatred in their hearts so they were able to forgive and forget. They had buried in the past whatever had previously smashed them into pieces.

I sincerely wish that everyone would think a thousand times before hurling away any relationship into the garbage bin because the dump truck might have already collected everything and the “treasure-turned-into-trash” would be nowhere to be found by the time he realizes that we wanted to keep the friendship...

trying to revive my hibernating blog.. a starter... ;)

Saturday, December 5, 2009

An excerpt from Manila Times says:

“In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with... and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose. I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a long time partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; Inconsequentials become deal breakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, and little things become the flashpoint of that fact...

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, And you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, ‘what if they were here today?’

You'll wonder, ‘what if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?’

That's what the one that got away is, the biggest ‘WHAT IF?’ you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one that will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens...

Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case, it's the same thing, you just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late?

Simple... find him, find her. Because the very existence of a ‘ONE THAT GOT AWAY’ means that you'll always wonder, ‘What if I got that One?’

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be ‘the one that got away’ as well for the person who is your ‘the one that got away’... you might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right, it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, ‘Hey you, you're the one that almost got away’..."