This year became a topsy-turvy year for my love life. And since we parted and ended our relationship as bf-gf. I’m still very thankful that we ended up friends... Yes, it was so hard for me to give up on him.
This December, for the nth time that he have asked me to marry him....
I answered him “Gusto kong pakasal sa’yo kaso makakapaghintay ka ba ng 3-4yrs pa???”Why does 3-4yrs very important to me? It’s because I’d like to reach my FA dream in which he’s not in favor of. We all know that a lot of airlines prefer single girls than married. And if ever I’ll get IN and sign a contract, based from what I knew you need to be single for at least 3-4yrs. His reason why he doesn’t like me to be an FA is because He already has the means of having a family. Yeah, indeed he’s financially stable because he’s a seaman, CHEF in particular. He’s earning pounds in London in which you can say “na buhay na buhay ka na talaga sa kanya”...
“Kahit daw di na ko magwork kayang-kaya na nga”...And according to him based from my work, I really don’t need to be an FA, because..
“okay na daw salary and incentives ko para mabuhay dito sa Pinas na hindi malalayo sa family and loved ones ko”... “Ano pa daw bang hinahanap ko, bakit di daw ako makuntento sa kung anong meron ako ngayon”...My point was I’m thinking of what about my lifelong dream??? Would I just disregard it and put it to waste? Knowing that there’s a voice inside me saying to reach and go for it. I prayed, really prayed for it that he could open his heart for the idea that this is my DREAM and I want to fulfil it, and that he should wait a little longer. But he remained close-minded about my FA dream. And I guess that’s a sign that I should end my relationship with him, and that he should find someone else that can marry him just as he wished, NOW. I have decided, it was really so hard for me to decide, to choose from love and a dream that I want to be for real, and there I chose to follow my heart in reaching my dream, and said I love you Goodbye... I now believe with what I heard from the movie “I LOVE YOU GOODBYE” that sometimes I LOVE YOU means GOODBYE....
He wasn’t really supportive of me with that dream, and I think that “partly” it contributed why I failed a lot of times this year. I didn’t get his BLESSING of me reaching my FA dream....
So now guys, can you tell me if I did the right thing or what???...
Also, I would like to take this opportunity to thank my fellow FA aspirants... Thanks for sharing your thoughts or experiences regarding your applications. And because I’m taking this journey in fulfilling my FA dream, I met a lot of FA wannabe's whom I gained as friends... Even though I lost a bf, I’m still very thankful to meet and have gained new friends... And me being Ms. Brightside, I’m really looking on the brighter side of life, that when one door closes, a window will soon open... and I’m looking forward to that this coming year 2010.
Let’s all pray that all our wishes for the coming year, 2010 be for real. And that we can all SOAR and FLY HIGH. =)
HAPPY NEW YEAR EARTHLINGS! Ü
2 comments:
happy new year sis..hay nalungkot naman ako sa entry mo. its pretty much hard to talk to someone who's close minded..totoo toh.i deal with people like those everyday..dito lang sa bahay namin noh.would you sacrifice your dream para lang sa loved ones mo? or would you pursue it but then they'd be disappointed. hay sis ewan ko ba,but i guess good luck and Godbless with whatever path you take. basta be happy,everyone deserves to be happy :)
..fo me sis, i would pursue it! whatever it takes, be it positive or negative..at least on my side i've tried it... super hirap na decision na ginawa ko, na makipag break sa bf nang dahil sa pangarap na maging FA.. kung titignan mo parang ang babaw na reason, pero ganun talaga eh.. dats life!..
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