..Words to Ponder.. :)

Surround yourself with love. Though this may seem to you the most impossible emotion to experience in the first stages following a separation, it is to become your course of action when you realize that love is the key to your control of self and to the door that is opening towards your new reality. Love is what brought you into your relationship and love is the power that will lead you to the meaningful resolution of your situation.

This decision to love must first take effect with reference to yourself and to the person from whom you are separating. You must love yourself for those qualities which brought you into the realm of that other person: your willingness to give of yourself and to take the risk of being hurt. And to love the other person in spite of the pain you are feeling is to allow that person the same freedom you will both need in order to move on. Love is a force that renews us and prepares us for tomorrow. Hatred is a shackle that keeps us tied to the past. Drop the shackles!

The one from whom you have separated will not soon be forgotten, though great distances may separate the two of you. Give the memory of that person the chance to help you by insisting on remembering the beautiful experiences that united you. The painful ones which separated you will need no coaxing from the memory. Turn your anger into love. Take the qualities you found in the other person and develop them in yourself, use them as a way of better experiencing your love for all the others who are important in your life. After all, those were qualities which brought you into love and they are no less worthy today.

Love has no guilt and no boundaries. In fact, it has no definition. Yes, it is the force which takes us out of ourselves so that we may share ourselves with others. Yet it is also the force that leads us into ourselves, so that we may understand and prepare ourselves for the act of giving. You cannot resolve the bitterness and pain of the separation you are experiencing by continuing to dwell on these feelings. Come alive with the force which is the essence of life itself. You are leaving one relationship, one stop in your journey. There is still a path before you. Walk in love.

are you still ON THE SIDE OF ME???

I'm not the easiest person to love
I'm often the one who lets things go unresolved

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

I'm not too proud of some things
I've done in my life
The skeletons in my closet
Are too big for me to hide

Yet you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
Blessed Charity
You're on the side of me
on the side of me

'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go
I remember when nobody cared
but you

I'm not the easiest person to love
But you, you've opened your heart to show me what I'm worth

'Cause you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me
What a mystery
You're on the side of me
on the side of me

'Cause everyone needs a friend to hold
when it's cold outside
and there's no place to go
Everyone needs a friend to hold
all alone I cried
there was no place to go

I remember when nobody cared
I remember when nobody cared
Nobody cared
But you

Yeah you choose to be
on the side of me
on the side of me

>> i happened to hear this song last year, around august or september if i can remember it right.. and downloaded it then from limewire.. :)
and now, i frequently hear it being played on some radio stations..
haaay.. this song really reminds me of someone then.. after all that happened last year then hearing this song after a month or so.. and then hearing it again now on some radio stations.. whew ano b?? one year na rin pla ang naka2raan.. tama bng maalala k pa na mag one year na rin pla since nangyari un..
i was on my way to cabanatuan yesterday, when all of a sudden 'this song' played on the radio station i was tuned in, made me cry for remembering it again.. kainis!
i hate the feeling when you remember something you really don't want to remember na.. ung feeling na you wanted to bury it na coz it's not healthy na marember pa.. but suddenly, just for some thing unexpected you'd again remember it.. ang hirap ng gnun db?.. this person happened to know everything 'bout me.. my ups & downs.. my actual emotions on a particular day, if im happy or sad.. i can say everything then alam na alam nia.. but for some things na really unexpected na mangyare.. everything nagbago.. as in everything..
yeah, 'a friend will always be a friend'.. pero ang hirap ibalik if sadyang meron na tlgng nabuong scar.. kahit na sabihin pa nating okei na ang lahat, still there's a part of me saying to back off.. parang ang hirap ibalik nung dati.. hnd k alam kng kaya k pa ba.. hndi k alm kng kelan gagaan e2ng nara2mdaman k.. basta i just hope everything will be fine.. but still, i miss the old times.. i miss it a lot.. :( i miss this friend a lot.....

~my "not so toxic" week~ :)

last week, im not toxic as what i've expected.. im stuck in the office for a week.. office, aufmc & school, office, aufmc & school.. dat's just my itinerary for the week.. :) naka2panibago.. hehe.. mas sanay aq s toxic na life.. parang kung hnd toxic, parang kulang ung ginagawa k.. parang feeling k hnd aq nagwo2rk.. hehe, dats how i feel pag tlgng hnd toxic.. dunno, kng gnun din kau.. :) i asked our reps, if im rili not needed in their area for the week, and they all had the same answer.. so far, im not badly needed.. it's good to know na walang problems/concerns s area nMn for the week, but SAD for me kc im stuck in the office tlg.. waiting for the time to reach 5pm para makaalis ng office.. :) hehe..
so dahil tlgng maluwag ang schedule k for the week, i went out with some of my friends after office hours.. :) from monday til thurs, puro aq may lakad after office hours..hehe gala tlg! :D all were dinner and chit chat time.. :) good thing, im now base here in pamp so lucky me.. hehe.. more time to be with my friends and loved ones.. :)
last wednesday, i had dinner with a friend and watched "21".. good movie, i enjoyed watching it.. :)
the next day (thursday), im with the meangurls, but unfortunately we were not complete.. diday was duty dat time.. so, sad for her coz she wasn't there with us.. it was again another bonding time for us, MGs.. the actual plan was we're gonna watch a movie, but since we were earlier for the LFS, we just decided to eat our dinner and have coffee at xtremely xpresso while chatting.. :) spending another quality time with my fab friends.. :)
okei.. so our chit-chats wouldn't be complete if we're not to make kwentos of what our actual experiences for now were.. so we had of course our fun-filled moments again and also had our serious talks 'bout life.. esp. our current lovelife status.. hahaha.. but im not here to mention those things.. :)
my weekend?.. i spent the entire weekend with my high school barkada.. grabe, i missed them a lot.. and it was so good to see them again.. :)
and also for this week, i craved for a lot of foods and had to buy one of course to satisfy my craving.. hehe.. like shawarma, isaw, cadbury topdeck, masapudrida and binanlay.. hay, super naka2taba s office kc puro kaen ang ginawa k while studying.. hehe.. i just wish na hnd aq tumaba ng todo-todo.. i just want to gain weight but not too fat.. hehe.. :)
nweiz, though im kinda depressed for this week for things i'd rather keep to myself nlng and not to mention it here in my blog nlng.. kc bka mabasa p ng mga persons involved.. eh mahirap na! basta felt guilty in a way, but all i did was to be transparent and honest lng.. they've done it on a wrong time and approach i guess.. guys, try to read my mind nlng..hehe..para maintindihan nio ung gusto kng sabihin.. hehe.. bsta un na un!.. :)
o xa, nxt time nlng ulit.. i'l continue watching greys anatomy season 4 na.. im sooo close to the finale part.. and i rili love watching it.. :) bye for now.. XOXO.. :D

The Time of My Life - David Cook

>> his winning piece.. :)
i just love this song, just like his rendition of Always Be My Baby.. :) lurve it.. hehe.. super duper THUMBS UP to Mr. David Cook.. :)

I've been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn't see it
Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I'm coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin' my world start to turn

And I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces
But now I'm rising from the ashes
Finding my wings
And all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart

So I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

And I'm out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
I'm keeping my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
My face to the sun

I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know
This is the time
This is the time of my life..
This is the time of my life..

What I'm Loving: My ZUNE.. :)

ZUNE is a brand of digital music products and services sold by Microsoft. It includes portable media players, client software, and the Zune Marketplace online music and video store. The devices come in three styles, all of which play music and videos, display images, and receive FM radio. They can share files wirelessly with other Zunes and via USB with Xbox 360s, and can sync wirelessly with Windows PCs.

The Zune Software, which runs on Windows XP and Vista, allows users to manage files on the player, rip audio CDs, and buy songs, music videos, and TV shows at the online store.

The first Zune models were released in the United States on November 19, 2006. The Zune 4, 8 and 80 were announced on October 2, 2007.
The second-generation Zune 4 GB, 8 GB, and 80 GB were announced on October 2, 2007. The 4 and 8 GB Zunes are flash-based and smaller in size than the 80 GB version. The 30GB Zune was not redesigned.

Recently, Microsoft has announced that Zunes will eventually be able to play games developed using XNA. Games will feature custom soundtracks and 8-player wireless multiplayer using the built-in Wi-Fi. It will also be possible to develop games that allow for Zune, Xbox, and Windows gamers to compete against each other. An early version of XNA Game Studio 3.0 released on May 7, 2008 allows developers to begin working on Zune games.


>> hehe.. im actually loving it.. mejo graduate muna aq from my ipod.. and im concentrating myself with this thing.. my ZUNE.. :) i absolutely love it 'coz it's actually one of the latest gadgets and i have one already.. Lucky ME! hehe.. :)

>> last thursday, may 15.. we went to mandarin oriental suites located at gateway mall to attend the Welcome Program for Mr. Frank Buescher.. who is he?.. he is the NEWest President and CEO of SYSMEX Asia-Pacific.. it was actually a dinner program for him.. so as usual, Zafire & Rhumba again became an Entertainment Industry in the sense that every group had somehow presented their talents.. some in dancing and others in singing.. :) the Rhumba group showcased their belly dancing skills.. the Zafire Manila had their Singkil dance.. and Zafire Luzon (me included of course) danced a Remix songs.. also, from our group, Deo, Aylwin and Sir Allan had their singing solo performances.. and they also had their TRIO performance, which was actually very well performed.. how i wish i also have a good voice for me to serenade Mr. Frank Buescher as well.. :) haha.. but poor me, im only good in dancing talaga.. :)

@ Mandarin Oriental Suites, Gateway Mall

while waiting for Mr. Frank Buescher

with boss boy & sir salamat

close to ZAFIRE..hehe

with my cousin, aylwin
>> the next day, we had our meeting in the office and afterwards, we headed straight to Villa Antonina Resort for Zafire Luzon's Summer Outing.. located just near my house..hehe.. actually it was just few steps from my house.. :) though it was raining so hard that day and eventhough there's a typhoon, still our summer outing was pushed thru.. Foods and beers were overflowing and also "pulutan" for the boys were present.. Videoke was also present in our villa that time.. and infairness, my singing capability was tested..haha.. maybe that's the reason why the heavy rain lasted 'til the next day.. haha it was all my fault i guess..:D obtw, fyi only.. i didn't hold the microphone for me to sing ha, i just sang with them in chorus.. i love singing though the songs really don't love my voice..hehe.. i just chose some songs for them to sing and for me to sing with them in chorus.. hehe that's how i play my part n the videoke..:) also, eventhough the weather's not good.. we still had the chance to swim.. but i just lasted in the pool for i guess two and a half hours.. the water was gettin' colder kc, and im wearing a 2pc swimsuit that time kaya siguro nilamig ako..hehe.. that's why i decided not to wear only the 2pc and to wear some cover-ups (a sphaggetti strap and a billabong shorts).. hehe..:) then after i took a shower, i just concentrated in eating, txting and singing with the videoke masters (aylwin, deo and sir allan) and of course the boys of zafire who were all busy drinking and thinking cgro how they'll put all those beers in their stomachs.. hehe.. overflowing kc tlg ang beers that night.. :)

ma'am ludz & sir allan_videoke time =)

with mama arth preparing our veggie salad.. yummy! :D

one of the videoke masters_sir allan =)

tamang inuman (our kampay session)

ma'am sally, sir arth, ma'am jay, deo and kuya raymund of Lifeline

the boys "kampay" session

videoke master # 2_kapatad na deo



in one of the rooms of our villa

kapatad na donnie & bon-bon




private pool of Villa Antonina Resort






with sleepy bon-bon

view sa taas ng villa.. :)

with kapatad na deo

insan aylwin humabol nalang..from his "Soul'd Out" Concert (a Christian gathering concert)yey! =)..

updating...

oh well, its been a while since my last update on this blog.. hehe sooo toxic kc with demos, lectures and presentations..:) but still i managed to have time for some gimmicks with my friends.. time management is really so important.. :)

last april 30 & may 1.. been to Punta de Uian, Pundaquit San Antonio Zambales with my friends_MeangurLs.. :) this resort is where Marimar and Palos had their shooting last time, in case you guys don't know.. and it's actually the best resort in Pundaquit so far.. others kc are of poor quality service.. and you can only go to Punta de Uian by reservations.. and mind you it's always a fully-booked resort.. super dami kc ng mga pumupunta at gustong magpunta.. so just be patient in scheduling your reservations, kc most of the time puro fully-booked tlg.. im the organizer of our "this year's summer getaway", so i see to it that everything will be okei..:) supposedly, we were planning to go there last april pa.. around 2nd and 3rd week of april, and dapat weekends kso puro fully-booked nga kaya nauwi kme sa april 30 and may 1.. pero good thing nMn kc lahat kme available on that dates.. hehe.. :) and todo negotiate aq s front desk para makadiscount kme, and sa pag island hopping nga nMn.. buti nMn my charms still worked and proven effective.. hehe kinausap p tlg ung resort manager eh.. :)hehe

we rili had a great summer getaway.. we had a chance to go island hopping, to camara and capones island.. :) we went also to the lighthouse of capones island.. when we reached the top of the lihthouse, it was so breathtaking.. the overlooking scenery was great.. although it was tiring to reach the top of the lighthouse, but it was indeed worth it.. :) great experience for us.. :)
obtw, after reaching camara island and on our way to capones.. before we reached capones island, muntik na po kameng mastranded sa aming bangka.. hehe.. ung bangka kc na sinakyan nMn e nasiraan.. and ang masama pa, wala man saming apat ang nakaicp na magdala ng phone..hehe.. pero ung videocam and cameras nMn eh dala dala nMn..hahaha.. buti nlng at naayos ni manong bangkero kundi stranded ang abot nMn sa bangkang un.. at super layo n nMn s resort at malayo p din ang capones nun.. haha.. but God is good.. we're still safe.. :)




Camara Island

Capones Island


goin' up the Lighthouse

at last, on top of the Lighthouse

seeing the breathtaking view of the island

hmmm.. wat a coincidence nMn.. i was browsing my friendster account, opening my recent bulletins when suddenly mejo nacaught ng attention k ung isang bulletin.. :p so i opened his account and saw that they (his friends) also went to pundaquit san antonio zambales.. and been to capones island din.. hmmmm.. is dat a coincidence or wat?.. oh well whatever.. guess they also enjoyed.. haha.. :) pareho p ata kme ng kimono ni girl, hehe never mind.. :D

..the videos/documentary of our summer getaway will be uploaded soon.. no time for now.. :) mejo tinatamad kc aq.. hehe.. so next time nlng...

..my puerto galera getaway was postponed.. supposedly it was last May 9-11.. but since it was raining so hard in batangas area last friday and that there's a typhoon daw and included ang mindoro, so we postponed it muna.. rili sad.. :( but there's still next time.. so we planned of rescheduling our bookings, but no specific dates yet.. :)

..hmmm, so instead of going to puerto galera.. i watched IronMan nlng with roma-myka a while ago and bought my mom a gift, after ipachange oil c sleek s mazda.. done with the 1st 1000km.. :) Happy Mother's Day to all mothers out there.. hehe..

..i still don't know where i would treat my family out for dinner tomorrow.. since it's Mother's Day and on monday, it's my dad's birthday.. so i juz plan to have a dinner treat nlng para sabay nlng and para mejo tipid.. hehe.. :)

..okei, i feel sleepy na.. nid some beauty rest na.. hehe bye for now.. :)

flattered mode.. :)

thanks kitz for the song.. Heaven.. as in shey_07_hvn..hehe.. galing tlg magcompose ng songs.. hehe.. im rili impressed for the second time around.. 1st song is SamDay and second song is Heaven.. grabe! u rili have talent in composing songs, playing the guitar, and singing your heart out..hehe.. :)